The Waiting

I haven't written anything, at least not anything bloggish, for awhile, but have been pondering the idea of it for a few weeks...ever since the "dying season" began. For someone who is now accustomed to speaking with people about life, death, grief, and loss on a daily basis I shouldn't find myself remarkably swayed when it occurs, but this year, for reasons of a greater purpose, the period between February to May seems to be taking a sharper toll than usual on everyone I am in contact with by way of loss of friends, and parents, and even pets. That is even before I start accounting for clients' recent losses. I have been hoping for it to taper off, however just four days ago, minutes before I went to do readings in Stillwater, I received news of yet another unexpected death of a school friend.

About a year ago I had a student tell me that he didn't understand why people weep at funerals. For one, I don't think he has lost anyone all that near and dear to him yet. But two, I suppose he is measuring everything from his detached perspective and highly elevated understanding that life, our soul existence, is in continuum. I also suspect there is little he experiences by way of clairsentient empathy (the ability to actually feel another's emotions). For even when the awareness and understanding of the continuity of life is great, the majority of us in that position are still connected to the human loss, the emotions, and the sympathies that are a natural part of our being here in these particular forms. Life does continue for all those that shed their physical bodies. I see them trying to reach out to their loved ones constantly, trying to let them know they are truly not far away and that they are whole and healthy and happy again. This is the gift for me in this lifetime of being able to let the surviving friends and family know this, to be able to relay the messages and convey the feelings of those around them who have crossed over. It comes with with terrible responsibility, and with great joy, and I am grateful each time I am able to reconnect people. Each instance is so unique and moving to me. Sadness is replaced with a renewed bond of love; loss replaced with hope.

However I am finding, this particular season, a certain challenge to this gift too, which is maybe even more saddening for me than witnessing the losses themselves...and that is when I know and can see and hear the passed loved ones wanting to connect to their family and friends here, but no matter how available I am to them, they are not ready or willing to speak to me about their grieving and to those they are grieving for. So, oftentimes those who have passed see and approach me as they know I am aware of their presence, and we talk. And then we talk about the waiting. And we talk about the need for the survivors to be at a particular place in their grieving to be able to make this reconnection. And we put trust in divine timing. Then we, the passed loved one and I, we wait.

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There are a lot of other kinds of waiting going on for so many people too. It very much has to do with this transition and transformation period we're currently in. (Back to the blog about 11's). But, all for another blogging I think, which should likely start with this poem I saw recently:

Calling You

I'm waiting.

You didn't know?

I came here

just to love you.

Called your heart

one million times

in small raindrops from the sky.

~suzanne saporito

Valentine's Game

Here's a little Valentine's Game for all of you out there trying to get through another Black Saturday alone. (The rest of you should be out there being grateful you've already got a love of your own and showing them so). You'll need some markers, crayons, or colored pencils if you want to get those out first.
Print out the flower outline photo. (Right click to 'save photo as' or choose 'open link in new window' to get a slightly larger version and save that to print). If you don't have a printer you can use a pencil or pen to sketch the outline yourself. The rest of the directions are as follows:

• Color each bubble surrounding the five heart-shapes petals: one yellow, one pink, one purple, one orange, one blue. The shades don't matter as long as you know which is representative of each of those five colors.



• From the table below choose five words to write in each of the white petals. Think of which color petal should be paired with the words you choose as you do this part.

• Think of "Unconditonal Love". What color does this feel like to you? Color the outermost petal-bubble this color.



• Think of growth...of a magical, healthy relationship...think of your beloved coming into your life. What color(s) does that feel like to you? Color the stem and leaves.



• Think of yourself being prepared and fully open to welcoming your kindred mate into your life. How do YOU feel? Draw a symbol of this in the center of the flower.

Your finished flower should look something like this. I will post a follow-up to this blog to explain the significance of the petals and the words you chose soon.

Keep your flower in a special journal, or better still, display it somewhere you'll see it to remind yourself every day that while you are waiting for your kindred mate, you are preparing yourself and your life for them.

May love find it's way to you soon!

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Wishing blissful, unconditional love to all my friends...and to my kindred mate...Happy Valentine's Day!

UPDATE: When you've finished the flower exercise, scroll down to get the details!

Valentine's Game Follow-up

Spoiler alert: If you haven't done the Valentine's Game yet - stop reading until you've finished the flower exercise above first.


Okay, so you finished your Valentine's flower. Now here are the meanings behind the petals to let you know the significance of the words you've filled in each petal....

Purple Petal represents "What I need more of in my life"

Blue Petal represents "What I need to bring to my relationship with my kindred mate"

Yellow Petal represents "What I need to do for myself now in order to prepare for my kindred mate coming into my life"

Pink Petal represents "How I will recognize my kindred mate"

Orange Petal represents "How my kindred mate will enrich my life"


Just a few things to think about anyway - I hope you enjoyed the exercise!

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"The minute I heard my first love story
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.

Lovers don't finally meet somewhere.
They're in each other all along."

~Rumi
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2+0+0+9 = Eleven

Bring on 2009!

This new year is great news for all of us and I'll tell you why. In the realm of numerologically-speaking, we have just come off a One year (2+0+0+8=10...1+0=1; you see). One years are all about starting over -- sometimes unexpectedly, unwillingly, devastatingly, or begrudgingly. It was all about taking new directions or starting on a new path. Easy to see why so many people have lost their jobs...or moreover, are being pushed into entirely new directions with their careers. Should you be one of these people and you haven't found something suitable yet, this new year should bring about that opportunity. You may also want to do some soul-searching and take the risks at this time to follow your passion if you hadn't already been doing that. Relationships and homes were significantly influenced by this cyclical universal phenomenon as well. It's all about moving on to bigger and better things however. New experiences, new people, new places to live, new adventures, and oftentimes a newfound gratitude for our life paths and purposes. So, seemingly horrible as it was for many or most, if we can look at all the events of the past year as a shedding off of what is no longer needed,..of our old ideas, ideals and ways of being, then in the spirit of transformation we should all be able to move into our new groove sooner rather than later.

Now about 2009...the Eleven year. Eleven is considered a 'master number.' It has it's own traits in addition to the Two to which it could also be reduced. When you see 11's come up around you it's a message urging you toward spiritual perfection, your higher purpose and true self. So 2009 as a year in general for us is about idealism. It should be an energetic year of inspiration, new perpectives, and awareness. (Did you think it was a coincidence we are welcoming in a new president who speaks so fluently of change?)

For those few of you who didn't go through some sort of upheaval in the past year, 2009 is likely about you revitalizing what it is that you still have in place, looking at it with a fresh, illuminated perspective to gain new appreciation as you move forward. As for everyone else, those new jobs and relationships and places to live, 2009 will be a wonderful time to begin anew. The best way to allow that to happen is to let the universe know you're ready for all those things to be drawn toward you now - that you are open to receiving these gifts which will lead you into your future. Then, act upon your dreams and the opportunities as they come to you. As I was saying, the Two traits also are in effect, which include partnership, friendship, balance, diversity, and cooperation. Which basically means for us is that the potential for finding that great job, ideal business partner, true romantic partner, or perfect home, is as rich as it could ever be.



Wishing you All~
Brightest blessings, blissful abundance, and true love
in the New Year!
~Heather

Alphabets and Songs

Artichoke, Buster, catapult, diamond, elephant, France, garden, hippopotamus, independence, jackalope, kangaroo, lozenge, magnetics, Neverland, omega, partridge, quarterback, Riviera, Sacagawea, titanium, umpire, Vidalia, watermelon, xenophobe, Yorktown, Zippity Do Dah.... Guess who got to play the alphabet game on the long drive home from Stillwater last night? It's worse than a song that gets stuck in your head.

Speaking of songs though, how about trying this simple little divination. It's similar to bibliomancy for anyone who has done that before. I started using this oddly enough while I was doing a consultation for a woman whose first husband had suddenly passed away in his mid-twenties. He loved music and during the reading he wanted me to play a certain song for his wife and instead of telling me which song, he pointed it out by CD & track. Ever since then my spirit guides have enjoyed using it occasionally to get messages to me. The nice thing is it's so quick you can do it every day, or whenever you feel drawn to it.


So...go to your CD collection - if you have multiple shelves or stacks you can choose which one you want to use or else just start from the top and use them all (you'll just have count higher numbers probably). Out loud or telepathically, ask what your message is for today, then "listen" for the first number that pops in your head. Close your eyes if it helps you concentrate. Count that many CD's (from top to bottom or from left to right) and put your finger on it. Next (closing your eyes again if it that's what works for you), ask "which track?" When you get your number, pull out the CD, then look at the song title to get your message for the day. Just depending on how this works for you, your message will either be the song title itself, or it's possible the message could require you to listen to the whole song to get a specific line of lyrics. Or...you may need to repeat the process to get two or three song titles to put together as was the case for me today...

CD 42, Track 5 and 3 ..."Elevation + Always",
which might seem cryptic to you, but with what was on my mind this morning it makes perfect sense to me.

Try it for yourself - have fun with whatever gets stuck in your head. And feel free to leave a comment back to add your own message for the day!